ceeded in all three. Lawyers and court actions cost a lot of money even when you win.

Out of this action grew a great deal of disharmony among TVs around the country as Bob persuaded various people of the correct- ness of his cause plus circulating false assertions about the amount of money Chevalier earned and of which he was being "cheated." Thus many came to look upon me as a thief and a profiteer and therefore dropped out of the group. The fact that I was vindicated by Bob's refusal to appear for a court ordered disposition never, of course caught up with the mischief that he did. It was the old story of the Big Lie it can never be eradicated by the small voice of truth.

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Another by-product of all this was the appearance of another magazine for Transvestites which was going to capitalize on the dis- sent and did so for awhile. Its prospectus indicated that it was going to be better, cheaper, more responsive, more open, more everything than TVia. It devoted itself to a number of articles and snide com- ments calculated to degrade and make fun of everything I stood for, organized, did or said. It seemed such a waste of talent to have two magazines for the same group fighting when all of us behind one could have made it bigger and better, faster. The fight was one sided however, since I didn't bother to fight back. There was no point in dignifying such efforts by a reply. They would have loved to have me get mad and print an “explanation" of some charge that would have given them new material to comment on and me to reply to and the pages of both magazines would have been devoted to this internecine struggle instead of to helping TVs. So I declined to enter this kind of

contest.

This effort lasted for, I believe, 7 issues spread over a couple of years and then it fell of its own weight, owing a lot of people either issues or refunds which they never got. I have always said that there are only two reasons for anyone attempting to put out a small magazine - either for love or for money. Since the readership is never large by the nature of things, doing it for money is an illusion as this other effort discovered. This leaves only love as a motive. Love in the sense of concern and interest in the welfare of those for whom the magazine is intended. Thus Transvestia lives after 10 years and other attempts motivated by other purposes have fallen by the wayside and there have been several others besides the one referred to.

I provided other fuel for the fires of accusations of dictatorship,

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